Ever been in a situation where you just feel blah all the time? Like you have no motivation for anything at all? Like nothing bothers you anymore? This has been me lately. My 2018 has been full of ups and downs filled with a whole range of emotions. The year started on a sad note with the loss of my grandma, then came happy moments when my two brothers wedded, then mid-year I lost my mum to cancer and two months later, I graduated. My emotions have been all over the place but I thank God because through it all, He has remained faithful.
Today's post was inspired by a challenge I won a few weeks ago courtesy of Zia Collection, a Kenyan clothing brand that deals with ladies' clothing. They selected my graduation journey story as the best among many others and I was privileged to get a full graduation makeover.
No doubt my journey to graduation has been one hell of a ride. I remember the nights I would get home as late as 11 pm and still sit through the night to work on assignments. My second year wasn't any better; my late mum was diagnosed with cancer and let's just say that most of 2017 she wasn't really around since she was out of the country for treatment. Beginning of 2018 when I had started working on the second half of my thesis, I lost my grandma. It didn't get any easier for me as a few months later, mum's health deteriorated; the one person who was my constant motivation to finish strong. I remember a week before my final draft submission when she was admitted in hospital, I would carry my laptop to the hospital and work on my thesis during non-visiting hours. A few days later, mum got really ill and a day before her last breath, I was able to submit my final draft. Three days after laying her to rest, I had to travel back home for my defense and the night before my defense was one of the most difficult nights ever; the first night that I was back home after the burial! I wasn't even in the right state of mind yet I had to work on my presentation for the following day. At this point it didn't even feel worth it to even go for this defense but remembering how she would unceasingly pray for me even when she was really weak just motivated me and I suddenly got strength. Fast forward, I passed my defense and the great news that I was finally on the graduation list came on the 12th of September, my late mum's birth date. This was God's doing.
My late mum was my best friend, my slay partner, my greatest cheerleader..each time I went for my blog shoots, she always asked that I would send her the final pics so she could post on her Whatsapp status. 3 months down the line, it still feels like a dream, the pain is still raw, sometimes I still cry myself to sleep, but I am hopeful that this season will come to pass.
We are in transition. Storms can really roll in fast but how you react to them matters. 2018 has been a year full of storms and one of the greatest lessons I have learnt is that no matter the situation you are facing in life, never ever give up on God and on yourself. God can't put you in a situation that you can't handle. All you need to do when you are facing a storm in life is to pray and trust in Him. I may not have accomplished most of my goals this year but I'm glad that I have been able to grow spiritually and my faith has most definitely grown stronger and this is enough for me.
A big shout out to Zia Collection for making my day. Make sure you check out their page for more of their amazing stuff.
"Weeping may endure for a night, but joy cometh in the morning."-Psalm 30:5
Photography: Taji Photography
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Dress-Zia Collection
Shoes-BATA
Makeup-beautybyrozy (Instagram)
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Wednesday, October 10, 2018
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